hey ppl!!!!how you find my new blog skin???nice???anyways never update my blog for long time....let you know that maria and i are on good terms now...started talkin....everything went well...anyways, saw kealvin(from pri sch)....see me never say hi...wadd hell right???...then saw him yesterday...called out to him....said hi and asked why he never say hi....all he said was,"that one you meh??"....i'm like what!!!!!anyways, how different could i be since primary school....?then i today morn saw beverly-anne(from pri sch too)...but never call out to her...no reason....i dunno whats wrong with me(in a good way)...i've been doing my maths homework and i'm starting to like maths....like wadda hell right???was having fun in the library with some sec 2s...they left earlier...so it's only me and nasri...as usual

keep reminiscing on some past events...beautiful disaster...get it??

anyways, its basically good to be in good terms with ppl....like maria...etc....
GTG now....update you when i get back...nth else to say....

holla atcha,
melissa

He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He’s as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just ain’t right
It just ain’t right

Oh when I don’t know
I don’t know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

He's magical myth
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
And do I try to change him
So hard not to blame him
Hold on tight
Hold on tight

Oh cuz I don’t know
I don’t know what he’s after
But he’s so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm waiting for some kind of miracle
Waited so long
So long

He’s soft to the touch
But frayed at the end he breaks
He’s never enough
And still he's more than I can take
Oh cuz I don’t know
I don’t know what he’s after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

He’s beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster

P.S: this song has a special meaning in my life.....

sing along with the music!!!

breaking benjamin-diary of jane

If I had to
I would put myself right beside you
So let me ask
Would you like that?Would you like that?

And I don't mind
If you say this love is the last time
So now I'll ask
Do you like that?Do you like that?

No
Something's getting in the way
Something's just about to break
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane
So tell me how it should be
Try to find out what makes you tick
As I lie down
Sore and sick
Do you like that?Do you like that?

There's a fine line between love and hate
And I don't mind
Just let me say that I like that
I like that

Something's getting in the way
Something's just about to break
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane
As I burn another page
As I look the other way
I still try to find my place in the diary of Jane
So tell me how it should be

Desperate, I will crawl
Waiting for so long
No love, there is no love
Die for anyone
What have I become
Something's getting in the way
Something's just about to break
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane
As I burn another page
As I look the other way
I still try to find my place
In the diary of Jane

....hi peeps...guess what!!!??....three days ago i got to watch "pirates of the carribean:dead man's chest"...like how cool is that????the movie is so damn nice i wouldnt hesitate to go and watch it again man....like a thousand times over....excellent storyline with an exotic twist to the ending.....i would recomend everybody whose anybody to go and watch the movie for a second time...and guess what again.....yesterday i got to watch singapore idol live man....like how cool was that!!!!i got to sit at the front with atiqa, my sis and me man...so maybe you might have caught me on tv or something.....the best part was after the show man....i got to meet the idols personally man....like all 11 of them....jonathan and joakim were so down to earth man...they rose their hands just to shake mine....i'm so touched...hahaha....that was really cool man....mathilda was flashing a sweet smile to me man....and jay and hady being as shy as ever.....and not forgetting paul and his "kumar" wave...i waved at him too.....the idols are so sweet man....they posed for my camera when i asked them to....how sweet....if only i can share it with everyone in school.....that's was hell of an experience man...hopefully atiqa would reserve a ticket for me next week and i would bring a personalised autograph book and get their signatures....i love the idols.....


God bless them and all the best....


holla atcha sometime,
melissa

i'm back.....i know it's a lil bit too early to make another entry but i've been doing some serious thinking....and guess what??? i'm gonna call maria tonight...and settle this out with her....she's got all her facts wrong....and she's got the wrong person...hahaha...i'm not doing this coz i'm scared of her...(nah!!!nothing like that!!)she says we never intimidated her but that's wasn't our aim....we've got better things to do...besides....she oly know how to write all this on her blog but she wouldn't take the first step to talk straight to the face....this needn't be a bad thing....either she's gonna listen to what i have gotta say....or she's gonna slam the phone, retaliate back, or God knows what.....it takes courage to stand up and make the first move...i never wanted to do this but putri wanted to.....if she's co-operating with me, then i can help get her phone back....but if she's not then too bad....she's gonna have to wait till next month or worst still, end of year.....i really pity her mum....how much she's struggling....God bless her....even if she hates me for thinking that i did this....if this is gonna work out sooner or later....let me tell you this first but i will not be as close with them as before.....i've got my own reasons...dun wish to tell it...hope this will turn out well....besides, i ain't scared if she sits in a big group....without them it's just maria and delvin all alone....thank God i've got mine....

..........no damage done..........
better luck next time........

.....sigh.....yesterday 13072006, loads happened....felt like i have been taken advantaged of...so i did what i had to do...warn them so many times but they didn't want to listen....all sha can do now is to call me a bitch....read her blog just now....seems like she's so angry...but she never think once that if she never did this, none of this would have happened....hahaha...and the best part is that i wasnt the one who reported her to the teacher....it was azlin...i had to follow putri coz azlin had loads of things to do....she also mentioned in the blog "no post in the council also want to action"....something any typical girl like her would have said.....i am not taking any of these personally.....i just realised that i do not want to be in the council...top stressful.....besides....i have always thought of staying away from the both of them coz they are not my cup of tea......i've been kinda struggling with them for quite some time already....feel very awkard being around with them....just to let you know....it was not something i wanna do....

seriously,it's been so long since i knew bout your handphone why would i wanna confiscate it now...???please lahhh.....use your brains for once please....and if i did, i would have confiscated raizal's, natasya's, nisa's, and many more.....why would i aim you first...and by the way.... i am not EMBARRASSING myself.....hahaha...look whose talking man....the whole school's talking behind her back and she doesn't know a damn thing.....she also mentioned that she was gonna do something to make me regret this....am i supposed to be "scared"????ppl slap her face already she start to cry.....what can she possibly do....

news flash here....i dun care if ppl are laughing behind my back....i never said i was tpp perfect for them to not laugh at me....go ahead and laugh for all i care....this goes to show how such a big coward you are not being able to show your face inforont of me....pls remember that it ain't my fault....your friend delvin can't even give up her phone and you are talking bout not embarrassing myself.....you know what??? this is too childish for me to continue...all you can do now is to scold ppl.....its my job.....too bad.....call me a bitch, i dun care....i'm just gonna sit there and laugh straight to your face.......hahahaha!!!!!!

notice i never called you names.....just keeping my dignity up.....

it has been confirmed...i am no more in the ex-co...and so is my deputy...so fustrated!!!some ppl just dun get it man...ppl work so hard for this position and they just grab it away....like how the f**k do you think i will feel, you b***h!!!!dun expect me to be nice to you anymore...fortunately on the second thought, it's no use pondering bout this shit coz it just filling me with rage....it's just to hard to let go...there's nothing i can do bout it....i feel bashed up man....keeping all that rage in me isn't gonna get me anywhere....and so dose letting it out to....so f**ked up....karma will get back at whoever is involved n this....they just dun wanna let me shine...a great opportunity taken away from me...i bet my "deputy" feels the same way...but he knows how to handle it better than i do....feel like screaming and pulling out her hair....but i can't....
B***H!

holla atcha,
melissa