I have grown in every aspect of the noun "human being".
Still, my journey is a long one.
Transition from the young and mischievious to the older and nonchalant being.
Significant indeed.
Fear of inferiority and helplessness, now non-existent.
Sometimes, I feel Im still not ready to move,
even though otherwise.
Constantly I reminisce.
Looking back at things that eventually became memories.
Sweet. And bittersweet.
And I cant help but laugh to myself.
The sillyness of the young mind. Having no care in the world.
Beautiful.Utterly.

Come back to reality.Epiphany struck.
As I prepare for more endeavours to come.
A deep breath. Looking Ahead.
As i pray for guidance, for love.
The future,something I will shape.
I will conquer.

now a celebratory drink, if you will.

a toast to good things.

ok..so it has been so long since i have EVER blogged what what i REALLY did...
and im so bored..and down with flu..
so here goes..

yesterday.was a satudarday.(duh!)
made my way to church.
on the bus, saw beverly.
a very old friend of mine.
nice to hear she's doing well.
moving on....
entered church and saw maria there..poor thing she waited for me and sylvia but i came slightly late...god knows where the other gundoo went.
bout 5 mins later that gundoo came...
suffering in the heels that she was wearing...
and omg.during the whole mass...i tried to make an effort to concentrate.
but sylvia kept laughing at lil things she sees around.man.
and maria enjoying every hymn being sung.
ME.standing there like a stoner.unless sylvia starts her engine again.
Hey..i made an effort to concentrate ok...
then head on down to macs.
and maria and sylvia kept saying how different i looked comparing the times i was in sec sch...
haha..thanks man..but i really don know how to react to such compliments...
ate at macs. and talked alot.caught up.
heard that o lvl results are coming out next month.
good luck to all my friends waiting for it.
after macs...went to sylvia's house..maria went home..
and i felt awkward cause it was ram's b'day..and all his friends were there....
after the cake cutting i went home..
and that's that.

actually..there's more to it..
but im lazy to actually type it out..
so now you understand why my blog is not really a life journal??
cause if it was, i swear i'd be good at essay-writing.

as for now. imma bounce.
this flu is killin me. and there aint no way im gonna choke on pills.
sleep is the best.

ciao.

School Life is a Bitch.
Actually not the life lived. But the selfish, inconsiderate people that dwell in it.

You speak of your own groupmates being selfish.
Wanting them out of your group so that the group will be efficient in the future.Or perhaps maybe you do not want to jeopardise your marks in the future.
Arent you being selfish for wanting this?
And yet you have the cheek to accuse other people of being selfish? Inconsiderate?
And the (fucking!) fact that you SPECIFICALLY brought MY group into your group's problem?
And yet you expect this matter to stay within your group when YOU specifically brought my group into the matter?
Do you seriously think I am gonna shut up when i hear this?
HELL NO!
You talk to other people about my group and how we do our work.
Let me tell you this, my group is not perfect. We have flaws and I KNOW we are not the best of the groups.BUT STILL, i am willing to make it work with my group and I am NOT selfish as to chase other people out of my group cause i do not want to jeopardise my marks.I am willing to give my group members a chance cause I know I am not perfect too. I know my flaws.
But the thing about my group is that we put aside our differences and we communicate.
I do not want to say anything about your group as I do not wish to stoop as low as your level.
But let me say this.
What we do and how we do it, is our business.
Your comments(whether good or bad), is not appreciated.
And if pinpointing is how you deal with your problems, i am SO SAD for you.
As you can see, my group does make me angry.I DO make my group angry.
But we forgive and totally forgive and we TRY to improve.
We are young and we are materialistic.

Unlike you.
old. alone. dependent on others.
a senior among us.
so sad.
a taste of your own medicine.
sweet? i guess not.

OH LOOK CLASS! looks like we have another sly snake among us. beware.....

Dear people,

What I am trying to do here...is fight for my group.They have their own prerogatives too.
Any comments? please direct it to my face.(especially the person who brought my name for NUMERAL TIMES)
Thank you.

English.
The very common medium through which people communicate with.
The language that is.
Its world-widely known.
So how can anyone not know the basics of sentence construction?
Simple adjectives or verbs.
Nouns.
Or even conjuctions.
Subjects,objects.
If you dont know english, you basically cant communicate.
Especially in a multi-racial community like singapore.
And if you cant communicate,you cant survive here.(in s'pore)
Am i right to say that?
I truly think i am.

what im trying to say is.....

I went to the coffeeshop near my house to get myself breakfast. so i went to get some chinese food.Pau. I ordered. And the shoplady (a chinese) asked me if I wanted it packed and i agreed. After which she told me something in a dialect,which I am so sure it wasnt mandarin, as if it was a question. My reaction, "huh?". And she kept repeating that same line over and over again like as if that was ever going to help me understand. Her assistant could not even help cause she didnt know how to translate? perhaps. But she kept repeating it OVER and OVER...
I got pissed. By this time i was thinking, "LOOK AT ME!!! WHICH PART OF ME TELLS YOU I CAN CONVERSE IN YOUR DIALECT???"
Its a pretty rhetorical question.
And people like that shoplady can actually be seen in a car driving off after work.Like WTH man..
Honestly, I am sick of seeing people in the service sector who can only speak mandarin.or malay.or tamil for that matter.
Learn English people.Its good for you.

Its hard to believe i didnt swear much in this post.

" i carry your heart.
i carry it in my heart"...


random..but beautiful.

Melissa

/məˈlɪsə/ [muh-lis-uh]
melissa "honeybee" (Attic melitta)
Ancient Greek: Μελισσα

Means "bee" in Greek. This was the name of a nymph that cared for young Zeus in Greek mythology. It is also the name of the fairy who helps Rogero escape from the witch Alcina in Ludovico Ariosto's poem 'Orlando Furioso' (1516). As an English given name, Melissa has been used since the 18th century.
oooo....



the leaves and tops of the lemon balm (Melissa officinalis)that are a source of citral and have been used as a diaphoretic in the form of a tea
*my dad used to grow this!*

Melissa Virus that hacks your computer.
*have you heard of it??*

See You In My Nightmares-Kanye West ft Lil Wayne.

[Kanye West]
I'm cold (Yeah), I'm cold (Yeah), I'm cold (Yeah) (Yeah)

[Lil Wayne]
I got the right to put up a fight
but not quite cause you cut off my light
But my sight is better tonight and
I might see you in my nightmare,
oh well how did you get there
cause we were once a fairytale
But this is farewell

[Kanye West]
I got my life and it´s my only one
I got the night, I'm running from the sun
So goodnight, I made it out the door, door, door, door, door
After tonight, there will be no return
After tonight,
I'm taking off on the road
I'm taking off on the road

And that you know,
That you know,
Tell everybody that you know
That I don't love you no more
And that's one thing that you know
That you know...

Okay I'm back up on my grind
You do you and I'm just gone do mine
You do you, cause I'm just gone be fine
O-kay I got you out my mind
And The night is young, the drinks is cold
The stars is out, I'm ready to go
You always thought
I was always wrong
Well now you know...
Tell everybody everybody that you know!!
Tell everybody that you know
That I don't love you no more
And that's one thing that you know
That you know

[Lil Wayne]
I got the right to put up a fight but not quite
cause you cut off my light But my sight is better tonight and
I might see you in my nightmare,
oh but how did you get there
cause we were once a fairytale
But this is farewell yeah

Baby girl
I'm finished I thought we were committed
I thought we were cemented
I really thought we meant it
But Now we just repenting
And Now we just resenting
The clouds is in my vision
Look how high that I be getting
And it´s all because of you
Girl we through
You think your shit don´t stink
but you are Mrs. P-U
And I don´t see you with me no more
Now tell everybody that you know
That you know!

[Kanye West]
That you know
Tell everybody that you know
That I don´t love you no more
And that´s one thing that you know
That you know
That you know
Tell everyone that you know
That I don´t love you no more
And that´s one thing that you know
That you know...

hauntingly good..

you dont just call yourself DJ for nuthing.
you should SPIN that SHIT.
and be able to DROP it like its HOT.
to rep the streets, you gotta know the way..
the lingo of the streets.


them.fuck posers

like a snake,
you slither your way through crowds.
leaving your sinful deeds behind.
like a peacock,
you strut your feathers.
seeking attention.
like a parasite,
you feed off other people's energy.
but like an idiot,
you fail to realise that we have brains.

what are you thinking?
YOU ARE UGLY...i get it.
why the need for attention?
ha!
and the women beside you.
you only kiss her to impress us.
wow.
are you trying to prove to us you're straight?
certainly not working.

and the women beside you.
if i knew my man is only holding me to prove to other women,
and if i accept that,
then i am just gonna bring my worth down.
i'd feel like a desperado.
i'd feel worthless.

to the both of ya.
lemme sing that song to you...
what was it called again???
oh yes...
*Desperado....
why dont you come to your sense.
climb down from your fences.
open the gate.
it may be raining,
but there's a rainbow above you.
you better let somebody love you,
before its too late.*


sylvia!
i'll try to update k??
no worries...