I walked down streets paved in desperation Colored in greenHolding the sweaty hand of confusion and fearAll the time thinking I was safeCould not see truth Vision clouded blue and full of haze If only I had known What it was to be full grown Maturity does not heed growth
Took my actions and thoughts into accountx + y= choiceHeld myself responsible No one to blame Refuse to continue the same Searched deep
Chose a different road I got my mind right Focused Refusing pain, drama and neglectPlanting the seeds of love, truth and growthStagnated associates had to be left in the valleycut off from the root Embarking on a new destination in the journey I call my life
Not looking back where it was yes familiar Yet safe but I had out grown that spaceI got my mind right and was able to see me Free of confusion and fear Self inflicted pain The constant attracting of the wrong spirits magnetic demons
Enclosed myself inside of me Breathing life Exhaling death Living me Passionate tones of red The Journey to finding me……

its definitely my day....

hey ppl.....how's the day going on....well, mine's great....1stly,ppl kept offering me chewing gums...today, although feeling depressed, ppl managed too keep me laughing....i can never be depressed in skul man...then, later in the day, i went for 'west spring idol' auditions and i've made it through again....this time only better...[how cool is that....never expected so much good things to happen to me....[oh yah, i don't take small gifts like a chewing gum for granted...]....nothing much to say today....just dying to update my blog for every1 to noe my life....[don't worry, nothing here is personal...!!!] maybe another few years down the road i 'll will make my way down to singapore idol...better still after that join american idol that make it to world idol....[how exaggerating is that!]k..gtg....

all about loving you bon jovi

ALL ABOUT LOVING YOU-BON JOVI
Looking at the pages of my life
Faded memories of me and you
Mistakes you know I've made a few
I took some shots and fell from time to time
Baby, you were there to pull me through
We've been around the block a time or two
I'm gonna lay it on the line
Ask me how we've come this far
The answer's written in my eyes

Chorus:
Every time I look at you, baby, I see something new
That takes me higher than before and makes me want you more
I don't wanna sleep tonight, dreamin's just a waste of time
When I look at what my life's been comin' to
I'm all about lovin' you


I've lived, I've loved, I've lost, I've paid some dues, baby
We've been to hell and back again
Through it all you're always my best friend
For all the words I didn't say and all the things I didn't do
Tonight I'm gonna find a way

(chorus)

You can take this world away
You're everything I am
Just read the lines upon my faceI'm all about lovin' you


Chorus:
Every time I look at you, baby, I see something new
That takes me higher than before and makes me want you more
I don't wanna sleep tonight, dreamin's just a waste of time
When I look at what my life's been comin' to
I'm all about lovin' youAll about lovin' you

too short? too long?

OMG!the drama camp is over! it all happen to fast man......the best part was definitely with Rene.....new games with new ppl...(some irritating ones too!)so how did everyone find the camp? well, the food made me sick(literally) vomitted out all the veggies...disgusting! now to wait for more dance competitions......latest one was the anti-smokin....never got to win something....nevermind....there's a long road ahead of me.....next competiton is in april 16.....definitely ready to give it my best.....sick and tired of practising for nothing, just have to wait to the time when the world sees the potential in us....never gonna give up.....faliure is not an option....try till sucess and pride is in my side.....K, why am i gettin so patriotic over here!!!(hahaha)today, notmuch happening.....just made me realise that waitin for something seems like the whole world needs two sunsets before the day is over.......time is getting too long yet it's over before you know it....now i realise that holidays are over! can't wait for next skul holidays so that i can take a break from all that stress....finally feeling the heat of exams.... must study hard.....till the next post, i will try not to freak out!

tomorrow is the day!!!

yo! wassup ppl? hope yall makin time for the drama camp tomorrow man....no doubts bout the camp being exciting....really lookin forward to a whole new experience man...ppl like ah long,eunice,nas, and ma other pals in the cca are gonna make this camp worth while dude....no doubts about that! (seriously) hope everyone's bringing chocolate to eat in the night.....whateva whatnot, just don't forget to load some good stories(ghost etc.),jokes, or some juicey gossips to talk about in the night,just to take up time if we can't sleep....fresh! peace out......can't wait for rene to come....that's whe the fun begins......BRACE YOURSELVES!

my heart, my soul

It has come to my attention
That I am No longer in love with myself
I have someone new
Someone who makes my heart Beat
Harder then it ever has before
She has grown up in a world Of misunderstanding
Not landing her self a spot to call her own
She is so alone, yet hides it, under smiles and laughs
Grown up in a homeOf confusion
Illusions of a man not there
She struggles to remain Strong
She is for enduring
The pain Of not having him there, to care for her
Maturing into a great being
Seeing is believing
That I sometimes have to blink twice
Just to be sure….
Of what I see
Your not there
Still she remains
Confident, elegant and graceful
I say in my dreams to her
“He’s never coming back”
But remain neutral
For fears of her hating the masculine being
For the sake of another man’s mistake
Don’t want to be there
Fine by me
But I am in love with someone
You don’t know
Grew up into a full womanStill at the tender age of 15
She makes a mend for your absence
She remains strong for me, taking my heart into her hand
She strokes me back and whispers to me,“It’s going to be okay you have me, and I have you”WE
ME and YOU
We’ll get through
His loss and our gainTo be loved is all she is after
I am in love with a strong woman
Proud I am of her
She has become an ultimate woman
So young, yet so gifted with scriptures
She searches for words
To ease MY painNever taking into account her own pain…..