the insights to me(amplified)

hey hey!!!waddup people!long time never blog sia....the past few days has been hell for me man...a emotional roller coaster....too many secrets were let out...now i finally know the real truth....it sucks...i fell for something stupid....thought it was humble but turned out to be egoistic has ever...this is really shocking....what a stupid freak....i hate that thing....thinking that itself is in good shape with a good experience and everything...how can it be like that....thank god!i don't live in my own world...i've already learn to let go.....of that thing....that stupid thing...unlike some people....no more stupid feelings and stuff....i don't know it, i don't care about it....

forget about that shit....now comes the dance group...everything was going fine....but raizal, the leader is angry about some people not joining danceworks because of their studies for next year....he should learn to respect other people's decision....but he's trying...he only wants the best for us....then, nasri and azlin are backing out from the teacher's day dance like so last minute and probably like forever too.....personally for me, i think we should learn to voice out what we think and work on the problem from there...this is so shitty man....now I'M the one being quiet....what am i suppose to do man....this is not how i want to group to end....this sucks bigtime man!!!!these people wait untill the last minute then tell out everything then backout....like what the hell.....now poor maria crying all to herself cause no one's gonna listen to her....after all the practices you all go through noe then wanna back up.....like fools man,seroiusly.....yall are treating yourselves like **** man....going through hard work, give up...then let it go....this is not what i call passion....i'm not dancing but i feel so fucked up right now.....tomorrow there's gonna be a dance practice with a sub professional and i don't know how's it gonna go...i'm predicting that no one's gonna go except for raizal and maria.....


THIS SUCKS!!!!i dunno what to say right now.....i leave till next time...

holla atcha,
melissa