never leave...(self composed)

in the dark you leave me to survive,
and there's only one thing i can derive.
my life once so placid,
now my heart feels so flaccid.
my future seems ambiguous,
the demons inside so ferocious.
alone i sit and contemplate,
to let go or to blade.
drip by drip it starts to flow,
soon im seeing an endless glow.
caught in this masquerade,
filled not with love but hate.
caught between what's untold,
hoping it would never unfold.
i find myself slipping into evanescence,
gone are the days of my innocence.
looking at my reflection in the mirror,
my flaws are nothing but minor.
can someone see the shadow beyond what's visual?
that thing people consider perpetual.
i am left of what it used to be,
something once carved beautifully.
filled with utmost imperfection,
reluctantly i stare at my reflection.
trying to seek comfort in the hideous,
seems nothing but somewhat useless.
so i stand alone, the mirror almost breaking.
cause i cant stand to see myself without him...