explain these thoughts....

thoughts decend rapidly like rain
pouring down in my mind,
overflowing my brain...
that inner demon only coming to take me down....
what the hell is going on??
emotional scars,they're all around...

all the secrets buried within my soul...
between the concrete
all the screams turn to whispers...
don't tell me you care,
i won't fall for that crap....
that wall i built
now no longer stand...
no one's out there,
there's no one out there...
i'm freaking calling for help but no one's there..
tell me i don't i have to live this masqerade...

am i that insignificant???
so transparent, you can't see
so soft, you can't hear
so hollow, you can't feel
every night i pray
for atleast some light...
so please forgive me but i will no longer be here...
so if you feel alone...
i will be there,
watching over you as you did over me...
oh yes, i will be there...
but you won't know...
- melissa segal

Hey ppl....How does my new and improved blog looks like???what a new makeover huh? Was getting bored with the old one so this is the result...Like it....I love it....So new....Don't worry..I will keep updating the new styles when I get bored with day old...Which is like, in a few weeks time...I've definitely improved man....Now my blog got music with new graphix....totally love it...for those who drop by, feel free to tag my board and feel free to comment on my blog...really appreciate it.....today is thursday!!!tomorrow friday!!! last day of common test...and comin to weekend...HALLEUIAH!!!!!!praise the lord!!! and congratz to NASRI for re-donig his blog himself....totally him...you should freak it out...you check him out in my links...got music and graphix sumore....good job...anyway, back to my life....dunno what to say!!!really stress bout common test and stuff...keep thinking bout what happen last week,friday...really bothers me....but i am more excited bout the upcoming events...first is the overseas camp....finally getting into the plane...don't care if it crashes!!!secondly, i am selected to go to australia on an exchange programme for TEN whole days...how cool is that!!!!another chance to sit on the plane...any way gotta rest my fingers...see ya peeps sooon

SORRY! SOME PPL GOT TO WORKED UP WHEN THEY SEE SOMETHING THEY DON'T LIKE....THE REASON? THEMSELVES!!!!

so who is it i am
this question i ponder
in my bed as i stair at the cieling praying to slumber
the sound off the rain hurting my brain
i feel like im insane
so many thoughts
so many questions all at once
is it me thinkingare thease my tears on my eyes or some stranger simply blinking
swallowed by a person i tryed to save
swallowed like an underwater corpse beneath the wave
sit wasnt my fault i did what i could
no matter whatmy intentions were good
still i preyedto god to my self for salvation and truth
to be able to live one second with out a thought of you
but im forever changed
mirrors become jurysa person a crowd
as if every thought in my head
is being screamed out loudi stay here in my silence away from it all
stay here in the safety of thease 4 walls
because im not the one controlling my head
i did what i could and still you are
dead.....

hey ppl.....! finally my soul is free!!!i am out of west spring idol....now my life is stress-free....can't explain why but believe me i am not the only one feeling like this(no names mention!)....today the new LCD flat screen TV is coming to my house....so happy....finally can watch TV properly....some more got new DVD player...i am SOOO HAPPY!!!!! i am feeling so fortunate this whole month man....two weeks ago i ogt a new MP3.....now i got new LCD flat screen TV and new DVD player......how cool is that!!!!but there is still somthing lacking in my life, i don't want to mention. CLUE:the ball of light that always never fail to shine in my life....(guess and tell me the answer....)till next tmie.....

hey MANKUKS!!!!long time no blog in man....no time to even touch the key-board....schedule too hectic nowadays.....can't live in peace at night....something's been bothering me since a few days ago....not sure what!!!! i feel like QUITING the IDOL competition....too stressful.....i need to go home and study.....i miss that ball of light thay was in my life....WHERE'D YOU GO, I MISSED YOU SO...SEEMS LIKE IT;S BEEN FOREVER SINCE YOU'VE BEEN GONE-FORT MINOR....